Sorry for being such a bad blogger and reader lately.
Hopefully people are still reading this little blog of mine!
This is probably a super random post- but I feel the need to "unload". So here goes.
I've been back to school for 2 1/2 weeks and being back in the groove of being a working mom is really busting my behind! I'm at a new school and district and I feel like a first year teacher all over again.
It was quite an adjustment coming from a school where I knew everything, had a lay of the land, and was the one newbies came to for help to going to a school where I literally needed help finding the bathroom. Thankfully I am in the same grade level (which makes the adjustment easier) and thankfully my team is a big help. But it has been hard. Damn hard. I've cried many nights!
I love my class. They are a sweet bunch of kids and were quick to get our class routines and rules. I am thankful for that! I struggled with my schedule for a bit- trying to make it all fit was hard! I knew that I wanted reading groups and stations as a part of my literacy block but was having a difficult time working it in with my schedule. But I think I finally got it! :) We have different assessments and I have to take a ton of after school/weekend trainings.
I drive the van with all of the car seats, so I do drop off in the mornings and pick up in the afternoons. So I try to get to school as early as I can (which is nothing compared with my team mates) and stay as late as I can before I have to pick the kids up from daycare (which is nothing compared to my team mates). I have had such teacher/mom guilt! I have taken my nerdy-teacher-cart home full of work every night.
Here is a little gist of our daily schedule:
5:30 am wake up and get ready
6:30 am wake up the kids and get them ready
7:00 am I take the kids to day care or my mom's house depending on the day
7:15 am drive to work
7:45 am arrive at school and prep
8:05 am duty (2 days a week)
8:20 am school starts
2:55 pm school ends
3:00 pm prep for school
4:30 pm leave school
5:00 pm pick up the kids from daycare/mom's
5:30 pm dinner
6:15 pm bathe all 3 kids/jammie time
6:45 pm feed the babies their nightly bottle
7:00 pm lay the babies down for night night
7:15 pm do books/bed time for Reagan
8:00 pm work on school work
11:00 pm go to bed
And to add one more whine to the list- the babies have been catching everything at daycare! I swear. I must have forgotten about the germs. Getting phone calls at work telling you to come pick up your child is just awesome for that already-there- mom-guilt! Oh - and another whine- I've been period free (sorry for the TMI) for 2 years (pregnant and nursing) and boom- just got my period- so I'm currently all sorts of hormonal. Sorry.
I love my family. I love being a teacher. I want to do both. I want to be excellent at both. And that's the hard part. I feel like I am such a perfectionist and want so badly to be a "super mom". I know I am not the first or the last mom in this position. I don't want a pity party by any means. I just wanted to vent! I am thankful for all I have. But man, I hope things get a little easier. Just when I think I've got it under control- boom! Life hands me another curve ball! I literally said "I'm doing it great today" as I drove to work yesterday morning. I had all 3 kids in cute matching outfits for theme day at daycare, had my lessons ready and prepped... feeling pretty good. And not even joking. I got a call that afternoon that Hudson was sick and needed to be picked up from school. See. It's always something!
Thanks for listening!